The one that got away.
A tragic loss. Fate interfering. Bad timing.
Whatever excuses I may have used at the time are pointless because in the end it doesnt make me any closer to being with him. It doesn’t make my actions any less stupid.
The real truth of the matter is I took him for granted and I paid the ultimate price.
We will never make another memory.
I will ALWAYS love him and he will never forgive me and I dont blame him.
When describing him I would not be able to look past the word perfection. He was a fun loving spirited man who took every oportunity given to him and made the most of it.
He made me a better person, I challenged myself, I did things that scared me. With him by my side nothing was scary, everything was beautiful but for some reason I thought I needed more.
I hope one day he realises, I made a mistake. I left. But he meant the world to me and he still does.
‘Be mindful of what you toss away, be careful of what you push away & think hard before you walk away’
“These days, I haven’t been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leaving,
When your birthday passed, and I didn’t call
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days When fear crept into my mind You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride Standing in front of you, saying I’m sorry for that night And I go back to December all the time
And you said It’s too late to apologise”
– Back to December by Taylor Swift